I know one of the last posts I made I talked about how I made the choice not to go to college. Well here’s a life update, I sensed God drawing me to seminary. Seminary is something you choose when you’re wanting to pursue something in along the missions field. I’ve felt that calling on my life since I was a kid. I chose seminary and chose to study to be a Christian counselor. The question I keep getting is, “why?” My answer is this, I believe that as humans we are flawed. Out of our flaws we cause hurt. We operate out of our wounds which unfortunately leads to wounding others. Some wounds bigger than others. I’ve watched people operate out of their wounds and they’ve carried them into their marriage and into their children’s lives. I’ve made the choice to start the healing process of every little things my life. Giving Jesus permission to go places in my heart that I don’t even go. He’s brought up some stuff and we’re working it out together. That “why?” rings through my head again. Why? Not because I enjoy pain. I certainly do not. But because I want Jesus to have my whole heart. Not just pieces of it. Not the left overs of what has been shatter. But rather my WHOLE heart. I’ve decided that my husband deserves my whole heart. Not my pieces. I’ve chosen to not bring my hurts into my children’s lives.
Why I’ve chosen to pursue studies of a counselor is those same reasons but a little flipped. Once you dabble in healing, you become healed. In that you are overflowing. You desire to see healing in your community. My heart aches to see healing. I want to see people freed from their bondage. I can say this from first hand experience, bondage cannot amount to healing. Bondage cannot amount to freedom. By becoming a counselor I get to play a small part in that. Healing comes in different ways for different people. Conversations, songs, sounds of nature, sunsets, mountains, fill in your blank. For me I needed help. I needed someone to walk through my stuff with me. I couldn’t do it by myself. I needed community..I needed the body of Christ to do what it’s meant to do.
I’ve learned that it’s okay to ask for help. It’s more than okay. We’re humans and we can’t do life on our own. We’re not meant to. But what’s dangerous is when we rely on people to heal us. By me becoming a counselor in no way am I trying to propose that I can save or heal people. I know my capacity, and the reality is that I did not die on a cross to save the sins of humanity. Someone else did and HE wants to save and heal you. He wants to do it so bad that he died and made a way for it to happen. He died so that you can receive help. I am fully aware that Jesus doesn’t need my help. But when he allows me to play a small part of someone’s life, it makes my heart come alive. I’m honored that he would choose me. I know that he’s chosen me for such a time as this. We need healing. Our generation needs it. We need him.
I’m passionate about healing and freedom because I believe that Jesus is too. If we’re made in the image of him then we have some characteristics of him.
I know that it excites his heart to see his children lead into freedom. He makes a way for his children to be freed from captivity. If he spilt the Red Sea to make a way for people way back then, I have no doubt he’ll do it again for you.
Nothing is to big for Jesus. He knows and sees it all. Isn’t that cool that we serve an all knowing God? You may think that you’re to much or not enough, but Jesus claims you as more than enough. You’re made righteous through his blood. You’re his prized possession. He wants to clean you and make you whole. So let him. Ask for help. Ask for HIS help. Nobody waits until they’re better to goto the doctor, you go when you’re sick. Run to Jesus and he’ll heal anything you ask him to.
Jesus is called wonderful counselor and I believe that with all my heart. I want to be and look like Jesus in everything that I am. So I’m choosing that path. I want to walk alongside of him and watch him lay hands on the blind and open their eyes. I wanna help cast out demons, set the captives free, and high five Jesus afterwards. He delights in you. Walk in the freedom that he paid so highly for. Our time is now.
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